When I was a kid and it had been a while since I journaled, I’d always begin with “Sorry it’s been so long!” I don’t know who I was apologizing to, knowing full well that I was the only person who would ever read those journals. And by “kid” I mean I still do this when journaling. As though it’s a bad thing to be living your life or to be afraid of your own feelings.

Loving

Writing (fiction – not journaling or blogging, obvs). It’s been so long. Sometimes I begin new scenes with “sorry it’s been so long.” I’m kidding. But I feel like I should. Because for two years I was trying to write and nothing was clicking and finally, finally, it’s clicking and it feels good and when I get home I WANT to write and I think about it at work and while driving and I’m remember why I wanted to do this in the first place. Maybe it will stick this time.

Reading

Right now I’m reading two books: Everything is Illuminated, because I want to see how Foer made the shtetl characters come to life, and Wrapped in Rainbows, a biography of Zora Neale Hurston for Women’s Lives Bookclub, which you should all join, because there are really smart discussions happening over there and cool people discussing and I’m basically just watching and learning, because I’m a much better observer than participant.

Watching

Re-watching Brooklyn 99 and also keeping up with the current season. I also binged Arrow because I was really invested in whether or not Felicity and Oliver would bang. I don’t want to spoil it, but they did and it wasn’t worth it and I can’t bring myself to even finish season three. Sorry for spoiling it. I also really like You, Me and the Apocalypse, which is funny because I’m so scared of the apocalypse. Like, that movie, “Seeking a Friend for the End of the World” was super hard to watch and I had a lot of fear afterwards, so I don’t know why I keep doing this to myself, kinda like how people love scary movies. These are my scary movies.

Listening To

Borns. Look, yes, I heard Electric Love on a commercial and I fell in love with it and started listening to the album and told a friend, “it’s okay, but I think it will grow on me” and I updated her not even an hour later to say that it had in fact grown on me and now I love it a lot and can’t stop listening to it and want it playing in my head non-stop all the time.

Thinking About

Matcha tea latte with coconut milk that I will go get at lunch, on this beautiful, sunny, 75* day, everything is perfect today. I love today.

Anticipating

One month from today I’m seeing Hamilton. !!!

Wishing

That I were not working on this perfect day.

Making Me Happy

Borns and matcha tea lattes with coconut milk.